I did something which I has always thought impossible: I made it clear to Big that we should go our separate ways. It is painful, I would be a liar to say it isn't.... But deep inside, I know I did the right thing. I just can't live with his way ~ not being there for me when I was sick, said he missed me but always too busy to have time for me, even a dinner with him needs to make appointment in advance! How naive was I to think that so long I can be with him, I don't mind him not able to be there for me. Afterall, its the thought that counts, isn't it?

No wonder they say love is selfish ~ the longer it goes, the more unsecure I feel. I don't want to be always needy and sticky to him, not only its repulsive to him, I don't like that kind of feeling at all! I want stability and commitment from him, I want security. Since he can't give me what I want, and I don't want to burden him, I think this is the best way out. Its gonna be painful, but I believe time will heal all wounds...

No hard feeling for Big: I wish him all the best in life ~ his family, work and everything. So long he's happy, I'll be happy too.

Things that i always thought were impossible, had just been made possible.

A dreamer who is hopeful that one day her knight in shining amour will come riding on a white horse to rescue her



Orion ~ my one in a million

When Big makes me sad... When Boss having PMS...

World peace ~ no more wars, famines, etc. Equality of all people, no more prejudice. The world a better place to live. Not only for us, but also for many future generations to come. Hopes 2012 is just a myth, gonna live life to the fullest regardless it comes or not. ............. .............

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