Athena's Thots...

Sunday, April 19, 2009

10:22 PM

Watched the DVD of Letters from Iwo Jima today. Got the disc more than a year ago and finally find the time, and patience to finish it. I was totally anti-Jap for what they had done during the second world war ~ people from my own clan almost fell victim and contributed to the civilian dead toll. This movie protrayed a more empathetic view of some of the soldiers who were caught in a dilemma of serving the emperor and do the patriotic stuffs, or do what they would as a human being. Though watching this film does not change my stance of what they did in the war, okay, be honest... it softens a little. Let's just say that no one benefits from war, regardless from which side. The ordinary, humane people had to pay the price of the decision by a few fanatics. Much as they didn't want to participate in the war, they had no choice but to leave their family and go, even though they knew that they will not come back alive. Haiz....

Pray for world peace.....

Sunday, March 15, 2009

3:46 PM

毁坏的沙雕如何重来, 有裂痕的爱怎么重盖......?
我们的爱差异一直存在....... 等待竟累积成伤害...... 我们也已经无心再猜......
脸上海风咸咸的爱尝不出还有未来...........

海鸟跟鱼相爱只是一场意外......
当初彼此不够成熟坦白...... 热情不再笑容勉强不来......
爱深埋珊瑚海..............

珊瑚海

海平面远方开始阴霾悲伤要怎么平静纯白
我的脸上始终挟带一抹浅浅的无奈

你用唇语说你要离开心不在
那难过无声慢了下来
汹涌潮水你听明白不是浪而是泪海

转身离开分手说不出来你有话说不出来
海鸟跟鱼相爱只是一场意外
我们的爱差异一直存在回不来
风中尘埃竟累积成伤害等待竟累积成伤害
转身离开分手说不出来
蔚蓝的珊瑚海错过瞬间苍白
当初彼此不够成熟坦白不应该
热情不再笑容勉强不来爱深埋珊瑚海

毁坏的沙雕如何重来有裂痕的爱怎么重盖
只是一切结束太快你说你无法释怀
贝壳里隐藏什么期待等花儿开
我们也已经无心再猜
脸上海风咸咸的爱尝不出还有未来

Saturday, March 7, 2009

2:51 PM

时间过了, 走了, 爱情面临选择...... 你冷了, 倦了, 我哭了......
我懂了, 不说了, 爱淡了, 梦远了...... 那些爱过的感觉都太深刻我都还记得.......
怎么了, 你累了? 说好的幸福呢...?

说好的幸福呢

你的回话凌乱着在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌假装没事了

时间过了走了爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
离开时的不快乐你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了

怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻我都还记得

你不等了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着要怎么停呢
　

Sunday, March 1, 2009

9:49 PM

我不配

这街上太拥挤　太多人有秘密　
玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪　在还原那场雨　
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里
这日子不再绿　又斑驳了几句　
剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅　隔遥远的距离　
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋
还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于
描述我如何爱你　你却微笑的离我而去
这感觉　已经不对　我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给
你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微在妥协
是我忽略　你不过要人陪
这感觉已经不对　我最后才了解
一页页不忍翻阅的情节你好累
你默背为我掉过几次泪多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪你的美我不配

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

8:30 PM

I did something which I has always thought impossible: I made it clear to Big that we should go our separate ways. It is painful, I would be a liar to say it isn't.... But deep inside, I know I did the right thing. I just can't live with his way ~ not being there for me when I was sick, said he missed me but always too busy to have time for me, even a dinner with him needs to make appointment in advance! How naive was I to think that so long I can be with him, I don't mind him not able to be there for me. Afterall, its the thought that counts, isn't it?

No wonder they say love is selfish ~ the longer it goes, the more unsecure I feel. I don't want to be always needy and sticky to him, not only its repulsive to him, I don't like that kind of feeling at all! I want stability and commitment from him, I want security. Since he can't give me what I want, and I don't want to burden him, I think this is the best way out. Its gonna be painful, but I believe time will heal all wounds...

No hard feeling for Big: I wish him all the best in life ~ his family, work and everything. So long he's happy, I'll be happy too.

Things that i always thought were impossible, had just been made possible.

Saturday, February 21, 2009

12:39 AM

Finally, my favourite book is made into a movie!

So when two species from different planets try to decipher each other's secret language, that's when all the funny and innocent misunderstandings start to surface.

So are you the exception, or are you the rule?

I'd rather believe that I'm the rule... So at least it won't hurt so bad when things don't turn out the way expected.

A guy will move a mountain to prove that he's the right one for you. Otherwise, he's just not that into you. *-*

Saturday, February 14, 2009

11:55 PM

Today is supposed to be a day with the loved ones around, but not for me. Missed Big like mad since I woke up in the morning but has been trying to contain myself not to sms (disturb) him, but I just can't get his image out of my mind the whole day! Arghh.... This is what I hate most: to miss someone like this and he can't be with me, and there is nothing I can do to the torment that he cannot be with me cuz he's with someone else..... (sob sob...)

Finally can't contained it any longer at night and sent him an sms "Happy v-day". A moment later, he responsed by telling me to have a great weekend and that he's at home now, as if encoded with a secret msg - "Do not disturb anymore". Ironic isn't it, to tell me to enjoy my great weekend when you can't be there for me on v-day? Haha.... There is only a certain limit of how much one can take, and I don't know how long I can hold on to.....

Well, at least I still enjoy a very intimate relationship with two guys - Ben and Jerry. Two tubs of Cherry Garcia produce enough chemicals to make me feel in love again....